Motherhood Changes Things

   I was watching my mom change Ryder and noticed how easily she was doing it. She didn't skip a beat, even with him crying. I am getting to be that way with Ryder, and I realized it must me a mom thing. Then I remembered my dad had mentioned to me earlier this week that I'd be surprised by the things I didn't find disgusting anymore, so I decided to write this little post.

   When you've never had a baby, babies can seem fragile. They can also seem kind of smelly. Some people say that all babies do is poop, pee, and spit up.. And that is not entirely false. Haha, they do more than just that though, I promise! I do have first hand experience now!(:

   Before I had a baby, I loved babies. I wanted to be a mom when I grew up. I've changed my major in college three or four times since I've started, but I have always wanted to be a mom. I wrote a paper my senior year of highschool on being a stay at home mom. It was one of the biggest papers of the year, ha.

   If someone had a baby, I wasn't too far away from them. I wanted to be nearby in case they needed someone to hold their baby. Growing up in church, I always helped with the nursery when I could. I loved being able to hold the babies more than anything.

   When my mom found out she was pregnant with my baby sister, I was so excited. The idea of having a little baby in our house was so cool! There would always be a baby to hold or play with and  the baby would come home with us too! 

   Cherith was so little when she was born. Babies seem so fragile and little, especially at first! I didn't dress Cherith a lot because I didn't want to move her too much, and she would cry. Changing her diaper wasn't something I did either, because poop and pee isn't cute. (Baby poop smells more than it should, like, how can something so little be so stinky?!) It seemed hard to change her diaper too, because her legs would flail, and I didn't want to hold her legs down, what if I hurt her? It didn't help that she would cry and make you feel bad about the whole ordeal.

   It is funny how things change. I have my own baby now, and he is fragile. Even though he is fragile, I'm not scared I am going to hurt him. Before, I would just sit and hold a baby, and I'd be careful not to move too much as to not to disturb the baby. Now I am carrying Ryder while I straighten things up, or holding him while I'm eating. He cries when I change his diaper and change his clothes sometimes, but I know it is just because he is a baby and he is probably just cold.

   I also find his poop, pee, and spit up slightly adorable. Well, not adorable, but it isn't awful. I was scared before he was born that I might have issues dealing with diapers and spit up, but nope. Ryder is a little over a week old, and he has pooped on me once or twice, he has had one blow out, and he has peed on me two or three times. I didn't enjoy all that happened, but it wasn't the end of the world. It didn't bother me at all and I just cleaned my poor baby up. It happens!

   When a baby would spit up, I'd gag a little bit. I don't do well with spit up/throw up at all. I'm the kind of girl who will pat you with a broom across the room. I comfort people like that from afar. When Ryder spits up, it isn't so bad. It is just a little, and it really isn't a big deal at all.

   It's funny the things that happen when you become a mother. Things that used to be disgusting aren't anymore. I guess it is just one of the small super powers one acquires after giving birth. 

   With all this being said (well, written), don't mind me if you notice something on my shirt. Especially being a new mom, it is probably just a little spit up, or Breastmilk. It could even be a combination of the two. It happens. I absolutely love it to be honest. Taking care of my son is literally my greatest joy in life now.

Oh how motherhood has changed me!<3

xx

39 weeks!

   This is the last blog post I'll be writing while pregnant!!! I will be going to the hospital tomorrow night at midnight to be induced. Baby Ryder will be born on either the 24th or 25th!(: Ryder is the size of a watermelon. Fully grown as a baby. I can't wait to see how big he is. Hopefully, for my sake, he isn't a huge baby. I'm sure he will be around 7 lbs. and around 19 inches long. 

   I had my 39 week appointment on Monday. I hadn't progressed much, I am about 1 1/2 cm dialated, and 80% effaced still. After my dr checks me, she usually sits down, asks if I have any questions, I say no, and she leaves. On Monday though, she sat down and asked me how I'd feel about having my baby on Friday. I said I'd love that! My mom was induced with all six kids, so I have no idea whether Ryder would be late or on time or what. My dr is the same dr that delivered me, so she knows what she is doing. 

   This week was a little uneventful. It was my brothers birthday, he is 15. Which means he will get his permit soon (scary!). 

   Yesterday, my family and I went to the fair. My siblings rode rides, and I walked around with my parents and little sister. Cherith liked the fair a lot!

   

   My brother won a big stuffed raccoon at a basketball game, and I've never seen a baby love a stuffed animal so much. Cherith just kept hugging this big raccoon (it was bigger than she was!), and it was so cutee!

How far along: 39 weeks !

Gender: Baby boyy(:Gender: Oh Boy !

Weight gain: 26 lbs. Now I wonder how much I'll lose after Ryder is born !

Maternity clothes: I won't be wearing maternity clothes for much longer !!

Stretch marks: It looks like I've made it to the end without any battle scars, hopefully all my pregnancys will be this successful(:

Belly button in or out: still flat, and kinda poking out, but mostly flat.

Sleep: I'm sleeping pretty well. Tonight will probably be a difficult night though, I'm gonna be so anxious for tomorrow !! I need to get some sleep in though, so that I am well rested tomorrow.

Best moment this week: Finding out that I was gonna have Ryder this week!!

Miss anything: I'm too happy to miss anything this week, it has been a really good week.

Movement: Still moving quite a bit, hiccups still all the time. It's starting to get uncomfortable when he moves, which means it has to be uncomfortable for him too. 

Cravings: No real cravings this week. I craved gingerbread frapps, and since I work at Starbucks, I got to have my gingerbread frapp once or twice(:

Looking forward to: tomorrow night. I am so excited to be having a baby, I cannot wait to hold him in my arms. I cannot believe I'm going to be a mom. 

   I have a little bit I need to do. I've got to clean my room, vacuum and dust everything down. I need to hang up two or three things up on the wall. I'm going to open up my little bed/co sleeper that my mom got me for Ryder. I'm touching up my hair tonight and I am just so excited. So far I am not nervous at all, but it is hard to fathom everything that is about to happen. I'm sure it will hit me eventually, now I just am praying that everything from this point on goes smoothly! 

   I will probably be on Instagram more than any other media site. I will also be putting pictures up on Facebook. So if you follow me on either, you are sure to be updated. I will definitely put a post up after I have Ryder. I'm just not sure if it will be in a week or not, so just keep your eyes open!(:

xx

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